Personal Growth: Stop, Game, and Continue

Content Warning: Virtual prostitution and dubcon scenarios

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Last week I was in a bad place. I was stressed out to the point where I started seeing stars in my vision. I’ve had it before, and it usually goes away after a few days of taking it easy. But just as I was trying to calm down, we had another stressor last Saturday. And so I quit life for a few days.

Too Much

At the beginning of last week, I had a long conversation with my husband. I discussed feeling overwhelmed and having too much on my plate. Keeping up my blog, writing reviews, and writing fiction was taking its toll on me. Each of the tasks isn’t particularly hard or difficult, but there are too many that I lose oversight, and I was crumbling. So I reprioritised. I was going to write less personal blog posts. I would finish the reviews I promised others and spend more time writing fiction. And so I did.

I took a few valerian tablets and was calming down. But then Saturday afternoon an event happened. I don’t want to spell it out here, but it’s something that my husband and I fear a lot. We couldn’t do anything about it at that time, since it was weekend. So it had to wait till Monday.

Distraction

I knew I needed to distract myself until that time, so I started up my gaming computer and loaded ‘The Sims 4.’ The thing is, when real life is too stressful for me to handle, I can immerse myself in this game completely. And so I did.

NSFW The Sims 4

I have added many mods to the game, like Wicked Whims and Nisa’s Wicked Perversions so that I can make the gameplay very sexual. The characters can have sex, and I can even turn them into prostitutes and sex slaves. I have created entire brothels. This weekend I discovered other players made lots with prisons on them or houses with a secret cellar downstairs. I had a lot of fun coming up with stories and playing them out in these settings. My characters weren’t as excited as I was ?

That’s Enough

After three days of incessant gaming, our primary stressor was solved, and I got fed up with the Sims. This is something I’ve learned over time. I can dedicate days to my video games, in the end, I’ll get bored, and I’ll want to come back to writing. And the best part is, I’ll actually be motivated to write again. I have new ideas for blogs to write, I have storylines for the stories I’m working on, I know how I want to write my reviews.

Breaks Are Okay

What I’m trying to say here is: it’s okay to take a break. These days of gaming feel like a mini-vacation from the world. I’ve heard of the term ‘Mental Health days’, and I think that applies here too. I couldn’t solve my main stressing event, I was too stressed to write anything useful, so it’s better to withdraw and focus on something entirely different.

Liberty

I do realise I have the opportunity to take this break. Trust me, I know this is not the same for everyone. When I was working in retail, I did not have this luxury. I value it and appreciate it immensely. And while it won’t be possible for everyone to withdraw from the world for days, I can definitely recommend it. And maybe you don’t have the opportunity to retreat for full days, but perhaps you can try to find an hour at night to pull back and do something for yourself. Even if it’s watching a TV show, reading a book or working on your crafts project.

Fresh Start

Taking a step back, re-evaluating and beginning anew with a fresh outlook is essential to my wellbeing and personal growth. After breaks like these, going back to writing is ten times more fun than during the weeks before. No, you don’t have to start a virtual prostitution ring to get to these results. It’s just for me, these NSFW activities work best.
I survived last week. I will continue to blog, but I hope to prioritise my fiction writing a bit more than before. And I hope to schedule in some Sims-playtime throughout the week. After all, there are always more simoleons to be made 😉

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